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Tuesday, November 1st, 2011

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Subject:4 years is a long time
Time:10:47 am.
Mood: sleepy.
stumbled upon my old journal...might start posting mroe often...must run to the gym. Much Love

Thursday, July 26th, 2007

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Subject:hi kids
Time:1:51 pm.
Mood: busy.
Hey kids.

Here I am back from Cairo and Sharm el Sheikh. The travelling is not yet over. Aside from working on my thesis-which i have done about 10% le sigh-I am working doing research for the ford foundation and dealing with french bureaucracy and frantic job hunting. Then I get to go to Algeria and possibly Tunisia in September. Weee! I want to have travelled to all of North Africa by 2008. Silly goal i know. I apologize about my long absence and will make an effort to keep this thing moderately updated with my life's little happenings. Bisous.

Wednesday, May 9th, 2007

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Subject:long time no see
Time:3:11 pm.
Hey gang

sorry for the huge parenthesis in my life. I just got back fez, you can find the pictures on facebook :D will write more later, i promise!

ma3 salema!

Saturday, December 30th, 2006

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Subject:massive bottles of vodka.
Time:1:52 pm.
Mood: calm.
Tomorrow is new years eve.
I am having lots of fun here in San Diego, but I feel more and more alone. My life in Paris has made me this completely different person than the person I was when I left and it is becoming clearer that San Diego could never be my home again, which is so sad considering how many people i know and love here.

im actually getting along with my parents for the most part this trip. my dad is still crazy arab chief man and my mom is still crazy jewish guilt lady, but the biggest change i see is in my brother. he is not really liking me being home and usurping his place as my parent's "only" child. he's told me to go home many times and has been an overall hmar. but now he's better.

i have LOVED seeing my friends. last night was a blast with everyone and i cannot wait to do it up again. As for new years resolutions, i think mine is just going to be continuing my search for clarity.

So now that's Saddam's dead, on Aid no less, and hanged like a camel thief, (can you say hung or is that a completely different connotation?)the world is going to be out getting fucked up and forgetting about this tragedy. please don't forget just how domineering and stealthy this administration is. Considering i lived in Kuwait when Saddam came a knockin' the first time around, im no big fan of his. however, when colonialism puts three COMPLETELY DIFFERENT OTTOMAN PROVINCES together to form a nation-state, you're begging for trouble. iron-clad dictatorships are the proven way for stability, and we've been more than forthcoming in our aid to those who support us. there are too many examples to list.

im reading 100 ways america is screwing up the rest of the world. with a foreword by howard zinn (whom i heart) read it. it is good. as is clash of barbarisms. however, i'd recommend any book published by palgrave-excellent publishers. ok that's enough. expect another update soon before i depart the states.

Monday, December 11th, 2006

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Subject:pretty good year
Time:2:03 pm.
Mood: indescribable.
as i sit here procrastinating on a paper on the regional geopolitics of oil in decolonizing Western Sahara (shout out to my homies, the Polisario, for being the dopest armed refugee community evar!) i look back on this year.


I still live in Paris.
Elevators can give out with you in them. Remember that.
I've learned alot about people.
I didnt travel as much as i wish
I fell in like with 2 boys, left both of them
Made really good friends
Had some good laughs
Sushi is still the love of my life
Climbed hella stairs
Got a job
Rememebered what it was like to be overworked 24/7
Finally got mental help
Lost 50 pounds
Improved my relationship with my dad

2006 was a pretty good year.
2007 will be even better.

Much Love

San Diego countdown: 5 days

Saturday, October 21st, 2006

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Subject:have you ever seen the light?
Time:8:57 pm.
Mood: awake.
incredible time with the frenchie. swoon.
its amazing when you connect with someone and then make out in the gross metro in paris.
someone walked by and was like "faut bien aller niker." which is the equivalent of get a room :)

hee.
time for 2 parties. weeeee!
<3

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Subject:ramadan shlamadan
Time:10:51 am.
Mood: chipper.
o ive been sick with death since ramadan started-wonderful reason NOT to do ramadan. aside from life is ok.

masters 2 is tougher than masters 1. i will elucidate further when im not in such a stage of franglais that speaking english has become difficult.

my dad, the african chief, is stopping in paris on his way to and from abu dhabi. He refused to sneak me into his suitcase. sigh. I am thinking about moving to Algeria next summer and writing my thesis there. I am going to discuss this issue with my dad-let's see if he makes me wear the Hidjab after that conversation.

"so dad i was thinking aboutmoving to algeria and interviewing the GIA...."
"..."
commence with the beat down.

ok i must go get ready for a date with the frenchie!

Saturday, September 30th, 2006

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Subject:la liberte de penser
Time:2:23 pm.
my birthday was fun!
tonite is part 2, will resume it tomorrow if i survive.

happy birthday Saleem :D
Ramadan mabrukoum :D

Tuesday, September 26th, 2006

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Subject:S.O.S.
Time:11:08 am.
Mood: angry.
people are fucking drilling in the elevator, yes you heard me. i have a paper proposal due in 2 and a half hours with a flippin' bibliography and they are drilling outside or above me. joy.


someone make it stop!

Tuesday, September 19th, 2006

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Subject:The Void
Time:10:36 pm.
Mood: high.
Whenever a period, an experience, ends, there is a perceptible void. Sometimes that void is slow in coming, you dont realise how wierd it feels to be alone so much. Other times its sudden, in a here today gone tomorrow sort of sense. However it comes, once the void has entered your life, things become static. everyone deals with the festering of ones social life differently. Me? I smoke lots of weed and pretend everything is ok, le sigh.

School is going well. I am having alot of intellectual growth. Hanging out with Jake and Sophien is helping me out alot, and I have decided that I am going to do a phD and that I am going to try to get into Sciences Po next year.

I am taking a class on the middle east and the professor is fascinating. We have to submit our paper ideas next tuesday and I am thinking of writing something on Political Islam, Opec, or I have this really interesting idea: i AM thinking of writing about the GIA and oil money in Algeria i.e. how does a country with alot of oil revinue have such a terrorist problem where id examine the GIA possibly the AIS-the armed offshoot of the FIS. SALEEM: what do you think? this might possibly turn into my thesis paper at some point. Need Advice.


Aside from that, i've been reading alot for the middle east class and taking it easy. I am going to write more about my politics and ideas in the coming weeks, I know you are all jumping for joy. Peace.

Thursday, August 24th, 2006

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Subject:where the citizens like to sit
Time:4:34 pm.
Mood: calm.
so life has been frustrating.
last week i spent time with my great aunt in Orange, about an hour away from Marseille in the south of france. she showed me great old pictures from when my dad and her were young in Algeria. she's a complete basket case but she's very interesting and is one of the only people who i connect with from that generation on either side of my family. we went to Marseille for the day too, which was alot of fun. i came back last sunday, realising that my internship was stalled because of the stupid social security number business. so now i either have a choice of waiting until next month, or attempting to get the french bureaucracy to work for me-which is about next to impossible (knock on wood.

I finally got my grades from last semester, not thrilled but not upset,which is nice. Ali is doing ok, im just not sure aboutwhere i stand in relationships. Maybe I am just relationshipedout? I just enjoy myalone time so much, i wonder if im even built for being in a committed relationship. People here aren't too big on the open relationship concept. Oh well, only time will tell.

So now I am either going to go to the south for another week or so, or sit in paris. Decisions Decisions.

Sunday, August 6th, 2006

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Subject:why me?
Time:3:29 pm.
I'm bloody starving.
I've been working alot, waiting for my internship to start where I can sell my soul willingly for what amounts to minimum wage, but hey, it's work and it will look good on a resume :)
Aside from that, been doing alot of reading and buying things.
Bought a TV, DVD player, and have Ali's TNT so we get all sorts of nice channels now. Weee!

Ali is my new boyfriend. He is fantastic. I'm going to crawl back to my hole now. Love you all.

-S

Wednesday, July 19th, 2006

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Subject:buzzkills and brandiwine
Time:5:41 pm.
Mood: hot.
So it has been awhile since ive actually updated my LJ like a good internet slaaaaave. here it goes.
my computer crashed a few days ago. I think it is a hardware problem, as I am gettingt eh blue screen of death and i have a bad feeling it is overheating since it sounds like an airplane is taking off. *mrrrg*

I am working part time in the library of doom where no AC or enough fans could turn this place from a sauna into a library. it is nice though. i picked up a book that is a collection of essays from the middle east report entitled "political islam" the essays are great, most of them are written well within the last 15 years, so its a pretty modern perspective. its keeping me occupied when i have nothing to do but sit in front of the fan and stare at walls.

The best news this summer is that I got the internship at Bouygues telecom. I start Aug 21, leaving me with a 10 day gap between finishing working at the library and starting at Bouygues. Since airline tickets to Algeria are ridiculous this time of year, I am going to see about taking the ferry across from Marseille. Wow, its so hot in here i almost spelled ferry fairy. WEEEE! Anyway, I am super excited about the internship, especially since it is going to be paid. It almost pays my rent when i work half time, so I cannot complain :) I get to teach english, more like familiarize, destigmatize, to the HR dept of Bouygues telecom. I make 970 euros/mo full time, so half that for part time work. YAY!

Lately I have been in a rut. 2 of the pools closest to my apt are closed for construction all summer long, so I am going to be trying to figure out which of the open pools in the 15th are the closest. What is nice in france is that for students, a 3 month memebership only costs 16 euros. You can't go out to eat for much less than that!

The fireworks on the 14th were amazing. My friends here are all good. We drink too much, whine too much, but soon we will be uber busy-especially me since I will be working part time and going to school full time. Ok, time to go finish up library things and get ready for Sarah's birthday party tonite!

Friday, July 14th, 2006

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Subject:Bastille Day
Time:2:54 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
enfants de la patrie
le jour de gloire est arrive


today is going to be insane.
meeting up with other grad students for picnic and fireworks at champ de mars. weeeee!

firecrackers are 8 am are pushing it a little however.

Sunday, July 2nd, 2006

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Subject:LES BLEUS
Time:1:11 pm.
Mood: cheerful.
Last night was probably among the best of my life-especially since France beat Brazil 1-0 in regular game play. My friends and I hung out at the Moose, were lucky enough to get a table, watch the game screaming ALLLLEEEEZZZZ LES BLEEEUUUUSSSS and all the rest. Ryn even wore her wig after our victory!
After it was official that France would go on to play Portugal (and win!) we spilled out onto the streets of Paris in the Odeon neighborhood. We werent the only ones overcome with joy. What can only be described as a procession of cars honking and people waving anything bleu blanc rouge greeted our shouts and hollers. Next we went to the Pantheon, screamed more, hugged strangers, drank beers on the street, etc. Then it was off to Champ de Mars where everyone and their third world cousin was cheering, running into traffic, stopping cars, and pandemonium in general. Last night, in sum, was beautifulin every sense of the term.

Friday, June 30th, 2006

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Subject:Tool.
Time:2:16 am.
Mood: tired.
Tool was amazing last night.
They closed with Aenima.

French people pronounce tool toool-leuhhhh
french metal heads are rather amusing :)

Wednesday, June 28th, 2006

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Subject:days when you want to stab people in the face.
Time:2:08 am.
Mood: angry.
today is one of the days where i want to stab people in the face. why you ask? because sarah got stood up twice, NOT ONCE, but twice, today.
so really, if you're a man, grow a pair and dont fucking stand a girl up-it's really just classless.

boy number one invites me to mickey d's (classless) then takes off and leaves me there. thank god i was near a train station or i would have been soooo fucked.

boy number two tells me to come to a bar, refuses to come outside to say hi to me, makes me go into a bar FULL OF ARABS. then wont fucking tell me where he is, so i leave. end of story.

i refuse to be treated like this.
really.

Thursday, June 8th, 2006

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Subject:so uch to drink so little time...
Time:7:47 pm.
last night went out and partied like a rockstar
arab night tonite...
possible jazz night as well

summer is fabulous!

Friday, June 2nd, 2006

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Subject:so many possibilities
Time:11:06 am.
Mood: blah.
dear weather gods,

pleeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaasssse make it go back to summer weather. I only have one pair of jeans that fit me and I'd like to wear all the skirts and dresses I bought. So please. enough with the shitty weather. Ok?


in other news, im still a sniffly mess.
had my africa final yesterday-everyone was cheating. reeeediculous, but hopefully i will pull another 17/20 and get an A+. Yay for Africa. My oral presentation in my international law class also went pretty well, we shall see how that final goes on the 15th. Between now and then I plan on seeing Jay and Max's frat brother's girlfriend from the states, getting a job, and boning up on my geneva conventions and protocols 1 and 2.

on an unrelated note, having a crush on another grad student is a severely bad idea. especially when he asks you to come visit him in Belgium...
what's a girl to do?

i haven't thought enough about the ramifications of visiting him, but t would be fun to go back to brussels, especially since tickets on the train are only 10 euros. Then I could go to the Dam for another 10 euros...iiiinteresting...

today i have an appt with the shrinky at 1345 then i am going to hang out with this Algerian hottie named Samir that I met yesterday. all the wind and my nose dripping makes for a snarky sarah. i suppose it is another day of wearing jeans. le sigh.

Wednesday, May 31st, 2006

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Subject:senioritis and such
Time:2:54 pm.
Mood: sick.
With the weather being all grey and unhappy-like, it should be of no surprise that I am now sick with the sniffles. Yesterday I woke up with a fever, and coughing. Today I am a bit better. Tomorrow I have my africa final, which pretty much means I should study my notes a bit tonite and hope I pull another 17/20 (silly french grading system). I also have my presentation on the apartheid wall for my international law class tomorrow. Then I am theoretically free until my final for said international law class on june 22.

Between now and then, I hope to accomplish the following things:
1. get a job
2. start going swimming
3. decide on moving to a new apt or not
4. decide about a PhD program
5. make more (french/francophone/maghreban) friends
6. possibly travel

Also, my friend Jay is coming in a week, so this excites me greatly. I plan to show him my paris, since the paris i know ranges from tacky and ghetto fabulous to snooty and designer. Really, this city is the best boyfriend ever! It goes with all my outfits ;) My uncle will also be in london on the 19th so I might go visit him too. We shall see.

This past weekend was the dating night. Hot arab boys as far as the eye could see. Some photographer would not get off my jock, but of course, he has not called me...surprise surprise.

I am off to study and get ready for tomorrow. Ciao!

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